My dear friend, you may not be what some people expect you to be. We all have our flaws but always remember that you are loved by our Dad in heaven.
Whatever you did in the past, no matter how imperfect you are, you are always special and loved. We always have a Dad to run into who will accept us no matter how dirty we are. Our Dad is someone who is more than willing to scoop and carry our imperfect, dirty selves and clean us as bright as new. We just need to run faithfully and follow Him. Just follow Him.
Remember, you are loved dearly.